More Body Memories

Title:  Penis in my hand
Date:  30 May 2007 11:18 AM
Category:  Personal

Penis in my hand shoving into me
Don't make me do that again
I can't look at you anymore
Because there is too much pain.

"?????" is that you?
Why would you try to hurt me so?
Why can't I be like other girls and boys?
Why do I have to hurt?

I would run away but I don't know where to go.
Someone would find me, they always do.
Then I get sleepy and have bad dreams
And I hurt.

I can never not do it
So my body acts like a machine
I always thought I would break in two
And maybe I did.

I'm very tired and I try to sleep
But I can't sleep, I'm not allowed
They keep bothering me
No one will leave me alone, ever.

I can't make it stop, them stop.
So I go to sleep inside where they can't get me
I wonder if there will be anything left of me
But there always is.